Originally written on March 16, 2018 at 6:12 pm
To all the people who got dismayed by my not placing in the recently concluded physician licensure exam, especially those who took extra efforts in praying and supporting me in any way, I am sorry.
I appreciate your concern but please do not feel sad. I don’t know how to comfort you but please know that I am alright with this, because even if we try to force something to happen, if it’s not God’s will, it won’t happen.
But I don’t want to think that God is rejecting me.
You see, most of the time, I wasn’t the one who’s planning out my life. I don’t have plans. Haha.
When I took Medical Technology as my course, that was unintentional. I wanted to take Tourism but when we got to CEU grounds, there was something that made me look at the list of courses and the words MEDICAL TECHNOLOGY glittered – literally, may spark. Haha. I didn’t have a clue about what’s in store for me.
Years after, I desired graduating as Cum Laude, but He didn’t allow it, why? ‘Cause I needed to learn some of life’s greatest lessons and when I did, He made me a topnotcher.
After getting my RMT license, I applied at an HMO and didn’t get accepted. Why? ‘Cause after a day or two, ACTS would call me and get me.
Years after, when I decided to go to medschool, I applied at PLM because the tuition fee was way more affordable than the rest. I wasn’t accepted. Why? Because he would put me where I can still serve my purpose. UERM is just two streets away from ACTS Review Center…that’s why I was able to teach while in medschool.
After 2nd year medschool, I lost my academic scholarship by about 0.1 grade, haha. I was already tutoring medtech students after medschool so I didn’t have time to focus more on my own studies but, if CheckPoint tutorials didn’t start then, it won’t be having its 9th version now.
Years after, I put Capitol Medical Center as my top choice in PGIship matching. I wasn’t accepted. Instead, God brought me to RMC. Why? Because that’s where more supportive people are and I was still able to serve.
Even before PGIship started, I already decided to take the March 2018 board exam, anticipating that I’ll be having a ton of makeup duties, and the desire to still teach while studying for my own battle.
I had the choice…
I could have focused more on my own just so I could have prepared better but, I think, subconsciously, that’s not what I really wanted. Topping the board exam was not my priority…being able to help even just one soul carry on with the challenges of preparing for the Medical Technology board exam was what I wanted.
So please, do not be sad, or blame the things that I chose to put more focus on.
Things happen for the best reasons.
Isn’t it exciting that if God didn’t think I deserve to be on top, then what BIGGER and BETTER gift will he give me in the next few days?
Thank you so much for believing in me and I hope you’ll also soon find out your greater purpose. 🙂